Thursday, January 31, 2008
For a while I sold Tupperware and was able to purchase both of the stainless steele cookware sets for half the price and I got the wok too. Lurves them all I do. Also in the pic is my very dirty on the outside, Paul Revere teakettle. I have had it probably 15 years. Can you believe the age of this stuff. But I would be totally lost with out it.
Last night she was almost out then Simon, the cat, came to make beds out of us, and that sent her over the edge. Not that Simon doesn't always make beds out of us mind you, but last night it just flew all over her. I ignored her crying, and at some point it quit being real crying into fake crying with pauses to see what I would do.
Then at 1am she was having cry dreams, you know, when she cries in her dreams and makes laudible sounds? Well, those totally woke me up and I couldn't get her to stop or wake up. She fell out in full blown melt down but didn't remember it this morning. The child was totally asleep. Our a.m. conversation went like this:
Me: Why did you cry this morning?
G: I didn't cry! (said in the most exasberated/shocked voice)
Me: Yes you did. What were you dreaming?
G: Mama, I didn't cry.
Me: (pointing to my eyes) Yes you did. See these bags under my eyes?????? I didn't get any sleep last night.
So one week worked but this week not so much. What gives?
Spell check is not currently working, and I normally use it so forgive spelling errors.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
So needless to say bedtime was a harried affair. I didn't get mad but she did have a melt down. I am tired because getting her calm still takes time. So we were awake longer than I wanted to be. This morning before we left I asked if she wanted to pay me tonight or right then. She chose right then, without tears she got her purse and pulled a dollar out. Then she watched what I did with it. I told her I would hold it until she earned it back. I am not sure how I am going to give it back because I need to break it down into change. She won't understand that.
She is half way to a smiley face today though. I was so expecting a melt down, being good for so long is very tough on a 3 year old. I told her I still loved her even on a frowny face day. I didn't make her watch me draw the face because I didn't want more tears. But I also will say, once she lost the smiley face, there was no leverage to get her to behave. So I am glad she didn't lose it this a.m. or tonight would be hell.
Sunday, January 27, 2008
G earned her computer for having 5 smiley faces in a row. We start earning the next 5 tonight. It isn't looking good so far. I have to change the rules slightly. Instead of getting a prize she will get $1 for every smiley face and will have to pay me $1 for a frowney face. She will be able to spend her money after 5 smiley faces in a row. Otherwise this would be waaaayyy to expensive. This little V-Tech was around $20. A good deal but I can't do that every 5 smiley faces.
Friday, January 25, 2008
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Funny thing is that I paid in roughly $472 but I am recouping $2500. No wonder our govt is fiscally messed up. I shouldn't be getting anything but what I paid in. Don't get me wrong I am grateful for getting it back but when I think of the millions of dollars wasted via the US tax laws, I am totally dumbfounded. I actually made so little last year that I got unearned income credit. Also, I still have carry over from the adoption credit that I am exempt this year and will be claiming exemption on my job so I will have more take home pay. I would so rather get it now that at the end of the year.
So because I spent time doing my taxes I didn't up load any pics for Wordless Wednesday. We did go to bed later too but G succeeded in receiving her 3rd smiley face. She even drew it on herself. SOOO EXCITED. I on the other hand failed by my own rules and stayed awake until 11pm trying to sort out what I will do with the refund. I need to have my car looked at since I am driving further everyday, I need to get two new tires, I need to make a dent in one of my debts, I need to pay my tags and car insurance, or I could pay 6 months of daycare to take it back from my parents. They are eager to have me take it up again.
To say I am tired would be an understatement. I think the third cup of coffee I had helped me stay awake. Seems when I have thoughts to process coffee will keep me up. If I don't have thoughts to process the coffee doesn't effect me.
I promise I will return with pics of G soon.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Plus this morning I was up from 3:15am until 4ish for no reason that I can think of. Then when the alarm went off I was asleep and didn't want to get out of bed. At my other job I would have snoozed and been late not worrying about it. This morning re-verifies to me that I am where I am supposed to be as far as employment goes. This is a good thing. I actually like this job so much I am willing to get up when the alarm goes off. Now that is a miracle. I have truly been unhappy with work of any kind since October 2003. Every day was a struggle to not hate my life since that time.
But I really like this place so far. I am able to decorate my office with pics and prints I want. I brought two of my framed/signed prints that would not fit in my house after I moved. They are hanging very prettily in my office now. I am going to get some of my mom's China prints to bring too. I can bring pics of G. I have a super nice new computer that I can store my fav cds on and listen to music all day. I can even burn pics. to a cd. I am back in business.
What I don't have yet is the actual access to the web sites I need to truly do my job. Oh well, all in good time, all in good time.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
She maybe didn't go right to sleep last night, but she didn't do the wiggling and squirreling around that she normally does. We are shooting for a lights off time at 8:30pm that give her 30mins to be wiggly if she needs without comment from me, but by 9pm I start to have fits, normally. Last night, though, she didn't disturb me around 9pm or after. She even got up good this morning. By good I mean in a good mood without tears or griping.
It was a nice night. Of course this gives me hope that we can turn our sleeping or lack of around. We start preparing for bed around 7:30pm which includes everything from brushing teeth to changing clothes to feeding dogs/cats, everything. By 8:15 or so we are in bed to read books, play stickers or whatever. Then around 8:30pm we turn the lights out. Now I could fall right to sleep at this point, but G can't, so I have the drop dead be asleep by 9pm lingering in the back of my head. She has 30mins of dark to unwind plus close to an hour of preparing to go to bed. What I am trying to stop is the staying awake after 9pm when I get so mad. Oh and trying to control my own self. Now with the smiley face I can truly relax. She understands it totally. She likes the smiley faces totally.
We shower in the morning so that gets us awake. She is always ready to go before me which gives her time in the morning to watch TV while I finish getting dressed and all. She won't stay in bed longer than me. Actually she gets really pissed if I get up in the morning without her. By the way, this has been our routine for a while now. The only thing I have now added is the smiley face chart. And I am and have been able to get to work by 8:30 every morning.
Thanks for all the well wishes. I at least know I am not the only one with sleep issues. Some of this is just my personal guilt of being a single parent so I am lenient to a fault and explode when I feel that she is taking advantage of my leniency. Which is pathetic I know because she is 3.5 and that is what she is supposed to do. I am the adult however and shouldn't be attaching my feelings to her actions.
So, now I have a computer at my desk at my new office and I will be back to adding pics etc this week. I will be busy still but will have time to check blogs. Yee Haw.
Monday, January 21, 2008
Friday, January 18, 2008
Then as I was attempting to drift off to sleep, she kept reminding me what we can't forget to go to the beach: "Mama, don't fowget ow cambra." "Mama, we can't fowget you puter... and my puter." "Mama, don't fowget to bwing toe-eez."(toys in southern, for those who didn't know.) "Mama, we can't fowget to bwing ow towels, or you pills or my medsin."
Of course each time she tells me something my answer is always, "Of course G we won't forget that." Then when I picked her up from daycare her teacher asked me when we were going to the beach. I guess G was talking all day about it. So I guess I had better get to planning a trip soon. Problem is I don't get vacation for a year but I guess I could plan a vacay to the beach next January. We will see. I am not ready for Disney but maybe somewhere. I have family in Ft. Myers. That might be an option for us.
I have decided despite the drive and the less time with G I really like it. Hope it sticks. I can see how I will get bored very easily on some of the things though so I will have to work really hard to not get bored. And to think I almost missed this opportunity. If they had not e-mailed me back thinking I had missed an appt. that I didn't know I had, I would not be here. I know God is in control but sometimes my faith waivers greatly.
Oh and He had me at the 1st thing too for a reason and it was a hard place to be faithwise. He truly does work everything for good, not good things alone but even the difficult things for good. Romans 8:28-29
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Of course we didn't go to bed as early as we had been last night, and she of course didn't go to sleep right away. This day will be painful. At least I like the job so it isn't a dread going there. If I get there early enough I can leave before 5 p.m. too. Of course today at lunch I have to go out and go to the bank. I guess I can pick something up after the bank.
Gas is going to run me about $80 a week or so. So around $300 a month more or less depending on when I fill the tank up. I will have to fill it up tonight on the way home which will get us through Monday or Tuesday. We will be back in town on Saturday for CNY so 5 days this week we will be in town. Next week more than likely it will be 6 days. That will get old I am afraid. But we will make do and will not miss opportunity to go to town on the weekends for fun with G at the zoo or CMOM or hang out with friends.
Okay so we are off for the morning and if this is disjointed, well, chalk it up to being very tired.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
So far things are exciting and I am learning the systems quickly. Okay so she is back, gotta go.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Also, warned today that there will be travel possibly to Texas in the near future as well as Nashville. Will let you know and if anyone is there would like to meet in the future then I will be available.
liking the new job, company and people.
Monday, January 14, 2008
1. What is your occupation? about to change back into HR and payroll
2. What color are your socks right now? skin color footies to wear with flats
3. What are you listening to right now? gospel music
4. What was the last thing you ate? Cheerios Fruit cereal
5. Can you drive a stick shift? used to be able to
6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? blue
7. Last person you spoke to on the phone? some therapist employed by this company on my last day
8. How old are you today? 37
9. Favorite drink? coffee
10. What is your favorite sport to watch? anything live or in the very last few minutes of the game
11. Have you ever dyed your hair? nope but permed a lot
12. Favorite reality TV show? I already have too much reality, I prefer fantasy
13. What was the last movie you watched? CareBears The Big Wish with G
14. Favorite day of the year? Glneys' birthday
15. What do you do to vent anger? talk, complain, whine, nothing good
16. What was your favorite toy as a child? Madame Alexander Victoria doll, I wished it to be real all the time
17. What is your favorite, fall or spring? both.
18. Hugs or kisses? hugs and kisses from G only. not looking at the romance time
19. Cherries or blueberries? cherry pie or blueberry pie both best
20. Do you want your friends to email you back? nah, everyone is busy
21. Favorite dessert? blueberry pie or cherry pie or vanilla ice cream with chips ahoy chocolate chip cookies crumbled up in it.
22. Who is least likely to respond? who knows. I was probably the least likely, but look at me
23. Living arrangement? I live in my grandmother's home which was lovingly refurbished by my dad who owns it.
24. When was the last time you cried? last week and due for another soon
25. What is on the floor of your closet? shoes, gift bags, storage containters, suitcases and dirt probably
26. Who is the friend you have had the longest that you are sending this to? Very few of my friends blog
27. What did you do last night? laundry, cooked dinner, and watched a movie with G
28. Favorite smells? coffee, bread baking, anything with garlic
29. What inspires you? doing well for G
30. What are you afraid of? personally failing and not being able to get out of debt.
31. Plain, cheese, or spicy burgers? cheese
32. Favorite breed of dog? Aussies
33. How many years at your current job? not quite one
34. Favorite day of the week? anyday I can take a nap in
35. How many states have you lived in? Two-Arkansas and Tennessee
36. Celebrity crush? Joseph Fiennes
37. Ever driven a motorcycle or heavy machinery? no
38. Who is your favorite NFL team? not really anyone
39. Do you have a house phone that is not cordless? no house phone
40. 10 inches of snow or 100 degree weather? 10 inches of snow if I can get out and about and am not stuck inside. 100 degree weather if I am in the airconditioning.
Sunday, January 13, 2008
So when G and I play any game, she sometimes cheats. So I tell her, "no cheating." Well the other day when we played she looked at me as seriously as she could and said, "Mama, no cheapin'." So I told here she could not be cheapin while playing the new game. She really likes to win though so I don't know. She beat me 3 times and I beat her once which made her pretty unhappy. We are going to have to discuss the sore loser mentality but she rarely loses. I am an excellent loser to her.
I will post pics of the picture day when I get them in. I took some of my own in the hall way and will post them tomorrow. Tomorrow is the last day for 1st Thing. It is bitter sweet because I have made some friends there.
Friday, January 11, 2008
G is getting it again too but I will have to wait until I get paid to take her in. Plus her doc is not in on Fridays and we are busy on Saturday. We have pictures tomorrow, priorities, priorities, you know. I may get my mom to take her Monday or Tuesday for me. As I can't really start taking off work as soon as I start, now can I? Besides my mom gets off work earlier than I do anyway.
If this doesn't work for me I will be going for another truck stop doc like last time for the cocktail shot. For G I am going to try otc because this may not be antibiotic need for her. I am more leery of giving it to her and her pediatrician is too. One time he told me I just needed to suck it up and deal with it as there was no infection or need for antibiotic. Although, I didn't really like his answer, I respected him for telling me that.
Some docs just give Rxs left and right because the parent/patient wants them regardless of need. Hers will at least be honest and give me other advice or tell it straight, "fever virus, motrin and tylenol, alternating don't come in." Personally, I like that about a doc. Don't waste my money if you don't have to but give me what is needed.
Okay so this is rambling now, which means my mind is not focusing due to congestion and ears roaring. G is spending the night with the grandparents, I will go to sleep early.
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Okay here is the low down on what will be called 3nd Thing*, AKA, the new job. I will be in HR and payroll (this I will have to learn). I will be making more than 1st Thing with a review and possible raise in 6 months. Now this is still not where I was when I left the psychologically damaging employer but it is so much better than now.
The downside is the commute and the fact that I drive an SUV (shaddup, it's paid for) and the gas prices are ridiculously high. Oh and going to the big city everyday will require bringing lunch unless I can truly skip it (maybe should, could stand to lose). Also, the great coffee temptation of my fav breve from my fav coffee shop, everyday, is real and costly. Coffee and gas could eat up any extra money I make.
I am praying for a new car or at least the financial ability/stability to purchase one. Maybe another small station wagon. My first self purchased car was a Ford Escort wagon. I loved it. It was also a program car or rather one that had been leased. I will probably try for another car that had been leased. I seem to have better luck with that.
Obviously the upside is more money, more stable company, less stress due to more money, ability to pay all bills on time, possible new to me car and will be in town where my friends are so I can see them more. Oh and the coffee temptation is an up too as well as a down.
But I have two more days here and someone to train for my place. So I will do my last bit of duty and leave gracefully on Monday afternoon. I was told today by two other people that I am getting out at the right time. So good, validation to relieve my self doubts is always good. Mom will be glad to hear that as she is slightly worried I have made another mistake.
*2nd Thing was the offer from the library when I submitted my resignation earlier to 1st Thing this past Feb. It was much worse pay than I make now but better than when I was a case manager.
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
Oh and another thing, the sudafed was left over from the meds taken to China in summer of 2005. I would have thought by now taking two would be safe since they have to lose strength not gain it.
Would you like to see the chickens from the zoo in action eating live bugs? I don't care, I am posting anyway.
Chinese Chickens Regular chickens (that is a scientific term as far as I care, heh)
You Are 45% Left Brained, 55% Right Brained
The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.
Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.
If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.
Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.
The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.
Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.
If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.
Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.
Last night was a bad BAD night for us. I told G that because she is continuing to refuse to go to sleep and keeping me awake she was going to have to sleep in her own bed starting tonight. So that lead to an hysterical 45 min. melt down. Okay so this morning I started talking about it in a cheery voice.
Mama: "Tonight you are going to get to sleep in your bed because you are a big girl."
G: "Yook at me mama, yook at me, I am not a gwown up."
Mama: "Yes, well you are a big girl."
G: "No mama I wittle."
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Then we went to the zoo. It was pretty great except G has all of a sudden become afraid of something at the zoo. It is nothing in particular but def something.
Then she took a 10 min nap in the car, and we watched Tarzan or at least part of it until Grammie came to pick her up. So we are having our Tuesday dinner there tonight. I will post some pics later of G and the zoo with some zoo videos later.
Oh and do you know how to tell what color eggs a chicken will lay?
Daddy didn't realize he was still taping. He was desperately hurting inside. more li river cruise. Most of the video was done on the tape not the picture card. Some of the ones from the picture card were lost when trying to copy them to CD at walgreens. Had I known then what I know now I would have down loaded them first here. Oh well. Maybe some are saved to a CD from China.
Monday, January 07, 2008
As I try to upload video from 2005 July trip. I need duplicates in several places one of them on my computer. Plus because I can't view them on my computer I want to see these. I have never seen them either. It will be a first for all of us. I have lots of these videos taken from the SD card on the video without realizing I could download these to blogger. I honestly thought they were lost to me forever. It is taking a long time to download them but I think in the end it will be worth it for me. And well, since it is my blog, I can download them if I want.
When I download some that have already been downloaded I will edit the previous posts to delete them.
Friday, January 04, 2008
Thursday, January 03, 2008
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
G ended up not getting a nap yesterday but she did well. I had to threaten her and she had to stay extremely busy, translated: moving. She started to fall asleep in the car on the way home but I again used the parental threat ("You will be sleeping in your own bed if you fall asleep.")
G at the museum. G playing the matching game with Grandad.