Bad dreams are us.
G talks in her sleep, have I mentioned that? So Thursday night she had a very bad dream apparently. She was beating the hell out of me that is for sure. Of course her feet connecting with my back in a painful way wakes me up in time to hear her very clearly and matter of factly (is that a word?) say, "I don't have a mommy."
Someone once told me that we work out our stresses/conflicts in our dreams even if we aren't dreaming of the actual stress/conflict. It just broke my heart that she would be dreaming that she doesn't have a mommy when in fact she has 3 mommies, her first mom, foster mom and me!
We didn't even go to bed badly on Thursday that I remember. And of course she couldn't remember what she dreamed it at all. When she talks in her sleep she doesn't remember her dreams. Those are words I never want to hear her say. I don't mind if she gets mad at me for not getting her way or for some perceived offense if she says she wishes I wasn't her mommy but really who doesn't wish that once and a while? But to declare that she doesn't have a mommy, hmmmm.
Sometimes I wish I could get into her little head!!