Well, as of Friday around 3ish I joined the ranks of the unemployed. Totally unaware but sort of knew it. I am only devastated in the loss of income and the company laptop. As far as the actual place of employment, well, I was embarrassed to tell people where I worked when they asked. Plus on accident one day I walked in, to ask a question of one male owner while he was discussing with another male owner porn videos that he was borrowing. Talk about embarrassment!! Of course neither man blushed, I however turned 4 shades of red!!
And as my mom likes to point out, this firing for lame reasons has been going on all year!! They were a devious company!! Which they were but they were steady income. I wasn't planning to retire from there but I was planning on getting out of debt from there.
Options right now are unemployment, look for a job in a depressed economy, and letting the house that won't sell go as in foreclosure. I am not living there and only own one thing, my car. I can rent from my dad or buy the house as him being the financier when I am again stable. The one thing I am afraid of is the unsecured debt that I accumulated in 2006 when I was unemployed from my own error in judgement. I am in repayment of all three of them and I don't want to mess that up at all. Roughly $311 a month total. That will probably be half the unemployment.
I wasn't raised to rely on debt nor get into it. I learned that on my own, heh. But I was raised to pay for what I owe no matter what so I am truly struggling with the letting the house go. It just isn't right but between food and basic living expenses I have now the house is $844 a month more than I can afford.
I am in a bit of self pity though I totally am not (at least trying) not to think "Why me?" Because honestly why not me? But you know the difference between a recession and a depression? Recession is when your neighbor loses his job, a depression is when you lose yours so I am in a financial depression!! Again.
Not to leave this as a total downer, I want you to click here for a wonderful conference I was able to attend last night and this morning (pre-planned for about a month). Sadly due to new circumstances and distance I am not able to attend in person tomorrow but will watch it streaming live (I hope) on my computer. Do you want to know or ever wonder who Jesus is? You will want to listen to the podcasts for January 22, 2009 through January 24, 2009. Alistair Begg and Sinclair Ferguson (both Scottish) expound the Scripture and bring the message of Who is Jesus, The Name Above All Names.