Saturday, January 24, 2009

Laid-Off

Well, as of Friday around 3ish I joined the ranks of the unemployed. Totally unaware but sort of knew it. I am only devastated in the loss of income and the company laptop. As far as the actual place of employment, well, I was embarrassed to tell people where I worked when they asked. Plus on accident one day I walked in, to ask a question of one male owner while he was discussing with another male owner porn videos that he was borrowing. Talk about embarrassment!! Of course neither man blushed, I however turned 4 shades of red!!

And as my mom likes to point out, this firing for lame reasons has been going on all year!! They were a devious company!! Which they were but they were steady income. I wasn't planning to retire from there but I was planning on getting out of debt from there.

Options right now are unemployment, look for a job in a depressed economy, and letting the house that won't sell go as in foreclosure. I am not living there and only own one thing, my car. I can rent from my dad or buy the house as him being the financier when I am again stable. The one thing I am afraid of is the unsecured debt that I accumulated in 2006 when I was unemployed from my own error in judgement. I am in repayment of all three of them and I don't want to mess that up at all. Roughly $311 a month total. That will probably be half the unemployment.

I wasn't raised to rely on debt nor get into it. I learned that on my own, heh. But I was raised to pay for what I owe no matter what so I am truly struggling with the letting the house go. It just isn't right but between food and basic living expenses I have now the house is $844 a month more than I can afford.

I am in a bit of self pity though I totally am not (at least trying) not to think "Why me?" Because honestly why not me? But you know the difference between a recession and a depression? Recession is when your neighbor loses his job, a depression is when you lose yours so I am in a financial depression!! Again.

Not to leave this as a total downer, I want you to click here for a wonderful conference I was able to attend last night and this morning (pre-planned for about a month). Sadly due to new circumstances and distance I am not able to attend in person tomorrow but will watch it streaming live (I hope) on my computer. Do you want to know or ever wonder who Jesus is? You will want to listen to the podcasts for January 22, 2009 through January 24, 2009. Alistair Begg and Sinclair Ferguson (both Scottish) expound the Scripture and bring the message of Who is Jesus, The Name Above All Names.

26 comments:

Super Mommy said...

Bev I am soooo sorry - girl this sucks :( - I will keep you and G in my prayers - I hope you find a job fast.

Marla said...

I feel like I should say sorry but I dont think that is sufficient. Every thing happens for a reason and something good will come of this. You have your faith and a beautiful daughter and things will work out.

Amy said...

I'll pray something much better opens up to you very soon. I'm sorry for the loss of income, not for the job.

Kelley said...

Bev, I am so sorry! Your outlook sounds really good, though. Hang in there! I'm thinking of you and praying that things start looking up soon!

Johnny said...

Sorry to hear your news.

I hope another door opens for you soon.

Vivian M said...

Oh Bev, I am so sorry, it never is a right or good time to lose a job. I hope you can sell the house so you do not have to foreclose on it. And I will pray you find a job soon! (((Hugs)))

Heather said...

Take care my friend, prayers going up for you.
Heather BT

Wendy said...

Bev, I am so sorry to hear about your job. I hope things resolve quickly.

Everyday Mom Designs said...

I hope things work out for you hun..

cheepette8 said...

I am so sorry about your job. I'm adding you to my prayers to find a new job soon.

AZMom said...

I am sooo sorry to hear this. I do hope you can find a new job soon! I also understand the getting out from debt thing. We were so close to being debt free when my hubby lost his job. I am hoping things turn around for BOTH of us soon!

Kim said...

That totally stinks :(

The Princess's Mommy said...

Oh Bev...I am so sorry! I wish there was something I could do to help you. I will pray and pray that something good happens for you soon!

Love ya,
Monica

Jill said...

I am so sorry. I have an awful feeling that things are going to get bad for all of us before it gets better.
I will keep you in my prayers.
Hugs friend, Jill

fricke92 said...

I'm so sorry about the job. I hope a better job comes your way soon. I agree with Super Mommy, this sucks!

JoAnn in NJ said...

Bev,
So sorry to hear this bad news, we worry about this every single day as well.

Something will turn up for you, I'm sure :)

Keep your faith (and you are correct, you and your daughter are healthy- that's most important)

Couchkat said...

I'm so sorry! :( I know all too well how that feels. This happened to me 3 times, including one time when I was working at a horrible place and was coming home crying every night. I hope something comes up soon.

Briana's Mom said...

Beverly - I am so sorry. I know you have been bracing for this for a long time. Hang in there!!!

Donna said...

I hope you find the silver lining of a much better job very soon. You and G are in my thoughts and prayers.

marilyn said...

Bev, I am so sorry. I will keep you in my thoughts and hope things get better soon.

Anonymous said...

So sorry to hear this. I will be praying that something comes your way fast. As far as the house - just remember that one of the big reasons that the economy is the way it is now is because so many selfish, greedy people bought more house than they could afford, knowingly, and now you are paying the penalty for their greed. If you have to let the house go into foreclosure to survive, let it go and don't look back.

Elizabeth J.

laurel said...

I am so sorry about the loss of your job. This economy is so rough. We are so scared of what is coming too. Good luck with the future. I am sure you will be able to find something soon, you seem to be so talented and well balanced.

The Byrd's Nest said...

Oh Bev....I am so shocked. I am on my knees right now praying. God will provide my friend....He will provide.

Mom To Six said...

Oh Beverly, I am so sorry that things are spiraled into this. I will keep you in my prayers. Remember that when God closes a door, he opens a window.

Hugs,

Ohilda

Heather said...

I am sorry this has happened to you. I hope you find a new opportunity soon.

Gail said...

Just read this post and I'm so sorry this has happened. You will be in my prayers. I have been a single mom and also been in your shoes losing a job. It will work out, I promise. It just takes time.