Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Linda's Random Dozen

1. Tell me the absolute best way to watch a movie. The best way for me is totally in pjs ready for bed sharing the movie with my 5 year old. Of course this would be at home.

2. Do you ever think about your own funeral? If so, do you have specific ideas about how you would like it to be? I want my funeral to be a celebration with up beat music and a message about how to get to heaven! I don't want tears or an open casket or anything morbid. I want gospel music with hand clapping and foot stomping and raising the rafter's with songs and praise to God. Seems to me if a person is a Christian as sad as it is that death is even here, we should celebrate the home going. Now I came to this thought after my grandfather's funeral in contrast with a funeral of a friend from work (who happened to be African American) and the difference in the funerals. Though there was sorrow and tears on both fronts one was truly a celebration ushering her into the arms of Jesus and one was more of a memorial of who my grandfather was and very depressing (he was in the arms of Jesus too). Just made me want to have more of a celebration at mine-no tears.

3. Are you more of a giver or a taker? I would like to think of myself as a giver but right now I am quite down financially and emotionally so I may be more of a taker at this point.

4. Vacations: planned activities and schedules, or play it by ear? Right now I have to play it by ear as I am still unemployed but when we can go on vacation I love the planning of it.

5. What is one often overlooked item in your home that needs to be cleaned regularly? the floors and the cat box.

6. Name a cause that means a lot to you. pro-life causes

7. Do you eat a regular old peanut butter jelly sandwich, or do you customize it? And by the way, jelly or no jelly? if I eat one it is just plain peanut butter and grape jelly. I customize a peanut only sandwich for my 5 year old by using cookie cutters for shapes.

8. If we were having a conversation in person, how would I know if you were nervous? I would play with the back of my hair/head. I noticed in high school that I did that when answering questions. I still do it and have to focus like mad to not do it in important situations like job interviews.

9. Do you have an elaborate bedtime routine, or just the basics of toothbrushing and jammies? right now our bedtime routine is showers, jams and one or three books depending on what time we get to bed.

10. Have you ever regretted something you wrote on your blog? yes my daughter's name spelled out. I wish I had used a clever nickname for her from the start.

11. Has anyone ever told you that you look like a famous person or celebrity? Did you agree? I don't think so.

12. If you were going to dedicate a song to a loved one or friend, what would the song be and to whom would it be dedicated? I don't know.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Some Things I Wish to Remember

G and I were fixing a cucumber salad one day and after she cut them up for me she asked if she could do the ads. I had no idea what she was talking about. I said, "Yeah" half heartedly until I got the measuring cup down for the first ingredient. Then G started saying, "You said I could do the ads." Oh the ingredients, got it.

After her shower one night she was calling me to get her out. I said, "Hold on, I'll be right there." She yelled louder and louder. When I did get there, frustrated, I said, "You do not demand for me to come to you. I am the mama; I do not mind you, the child." She replied (without missing a beat), "Well, grammie and grandaddy do."

With the whole molluscum thing we have had to change the bedding every day. G helps me and one day she said, "Do we change it down to the blue?" Well, turns out she calls the mattress pad "blue" and no it isn't blue. It does cover a blue mattress but that happens to be covered by a white plastic cover for the just in case situations and for the cat's revenge.

The bumps look like they are starting to go away. Some other places on her skin though aren't doing as well, not healing well that is. She scratches the stew out of them too. Hopefully by the school's zoo outing she will be fine.

Another Look at How Wrong Evolution Truly Is

"Is This Any Way to Do Business?
Mark 8:36
"For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world, and loses his own soul?"

"Evolutionary scientists tell us that mutations were central to the production of the great variety of creatures on Earth today from the first living cell. At the same time, biologists admit that 99 percent of all mutations are harmful. But, argue evolutionists, if you add up that one percent of good mutations over millions of years, you get the beautiful variety of living things we have today. Let's take a closer look, even granting the unproven claim that one percent of mutations are helpful.
"For argument's sake, let's compare evolution's business with human business. Let's say you start a business with $100. As is not unusual, you lose $10 the first year, the equivalent of a bad mutation. As you become more experienced in business, you lose less in the years that follow, but since only one out of 99 mutations is good, you continue to lose an average of $1 for the next 98 years. By the time your good mutation – your year of profit – comes along, you're $8 in debt. Even a big mutation – say, a profit of $20 – will not be enough to make up for the next 99 years of even small losses. In short, this is no way to do business, either for you or for evolution. Neither you nor evolution can possibly make any gains, even with one percent of the mutations being good.
"The evolutionary claim that all life today is a result of mutations, runs counter to logic, common sense and simple arithmetic. The only way we can reasonably account for life's variety is to acknowledge the work of a wise and powerful Creator."
As usual, the link of Creation Moments website is in the title.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

And the Winner Is-

Ohilda from A Bouquet of Blessings who is currently dealing with three sick with swine flu kiddos and one staying with his grandparents to prevent getting it. Hope this cheers you up some, my friend. Be sure and check your spam folder over the next week. I will send your e-mail to the company for them to contact you!

Thanks for playing y'all. As always, it was fun!

From TruthforLife.Org

"Just and the justifier of the one who has faith in Jesus.
-- Romans 3:26

"Being justified by faith, we have peace with God. Conscience no longer accuses. Judgment now decides for the sinner instead of against him. Memory looks back upon past sins with deep sorrow for the sin, but yet without dreading any penalty to come; for Christ has paid the debt of His people to the last jot and tittle and received the divine receipt. Unless God can be so unjust as to demand double payment for one debt, no soul for whom Jesus died as a substitute can ever be cast into hell.

"It seems to be one of the principles of our enlightened nature to believe that God is just; we feel that it must be so, and this terrifies us at first. But is it not marvelous that this very same belief that God is just later becomes the pillar of our confidence and peace! If God is just, I, a sinner, alone and without a substitute, must be punished. But Jesus stands in my place and is punished for me; and now, if God is just, I, a sinner, standing in Christ, can never be punished. God must change His nature before one soul for whom Jesus was a substitute can ever by any possibility suffer the punishment of the law.

"Therefore, Jesus having taken the place of the believer-having rendered a full equivalent to divine wrath for all that His people ought to have suffered as the result of sin-the believer can shout with glorious triumph, "Who shall bring any charge against God's elect?"1 Not God, for He has justified; not Christ, for He has died, yes, has risen again. My hope lives not because I am not a sinner, but because I am a sinner for whom Christ died; my trust is not that I am holy, but that being unholy, He is my righteousness. My faith rests not upon what I am or shall be or feel or know, but in what Christ is, in what He has done, and in what He is now doing for me. Hallelujah!
1Romans 8:33"

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Things To Do on a Saturday at the Grandparents House:

Catch fish in a jar.

G has been trying to feed these fish left over biscuits. Not sure if it will work or not. Need to add water to it but not sure how to do that either. Any suggestions? We could keep these alive with just a little info.

Excerpts from Robert Knight's Townhall Article

Link is in the title of the post. Well worth reading the whole thing. This was not just a peaceful prayer but a call to all Muslims that their time has come, and Islam is to spread.

"What I Saw At the (Muslim Prayer) Revolution

"On June 9, 2005, during an interview translated by MEMR TV, short for the Middle East Research Institute Monitoring Project, he quoted another imam uncritically:

"Dewidar: In 1995 I heard some sermons, saying that Muslims should march on the White House from some of the mosques.

"Host: What do you mean by 'march on the White House'?

"Dewidar: One cleric said in his sermon: 'We are going to the White House, so that Islam will be victorious, Allah willing, and the White House will become into the Muslim house.'”

"Dewidar then explained that Muslim ideas will be victorious if they lose their radical image.

"Another imam, Abdul Malik, is also an organizer. His Facebook site has an interesting lecture for young people. Here are some excerpts:

'I want you to hear me very clearly: we must remember as Muslims, we submit and we surrender to nothing and no one: not the government, not the police, not the FBI, not the CIA. We submit and we surrender Allah alone, nothing else. Nothing else….. It’s not gonna be easy and you don’t have time to waste believing that you’re young and that you can involve yourself in sport and play because when the enemies of truth drop the bombs on the world of Islam, their number one target, and the number one people that suffer the most, it is the children who suffer, it is the old, it is the women and that day they become widows and they poison the waters and the air, and the children upon, with cancers and other diseases … Democracy is not revelation, and democracy does not equal freedom, for in have all of the vices that are against the spirit of truth; so no we don't want to democratize Islam, we want to Islamize democracy. That's what we want.'"

Friday, September 25, 2009

A Hard Post To Write

I love that G is becoming more able to express her fears and concerns with me. We have had a rough week what with the molluscum treatment and mama exhaustion. G also has had a break through of sorts. Wednesday night was just terrible from treatment to past bedtime. G is not the most cooperative kid when she doesn't want to be. She is generally compliant but very strong willed. She is not defiant until she doesn't get her way or gets in trouble for something then watch out.

Wed. I was putting the medicine on her as she wiggled and giggled and squealed (yes in my ear) and generally wasn't cooperating much. I am very task oriented, when I am on task I need to get it done and am very serious doing it. Giggly wiggly girl is not helping task oriented mama to git 'r dun, know what I mean?

So I told her to get still. I had my mean mama face on that meant I meant business. She on the other hand did the whole closed mouth laugh at mama laugh (do you know that one too?). I said, "You are being disrespectful. Stand still and stop." She did the whole thing over so I said, "You just wait, one day you will understand." I, in my mind, finished that thought with "when you have a child being disrespectful to you, you will understand what I am telling you now."

 She on the other hand threw out the challenge question with anger/attitude/fear thrown in for good measure and said, "When will you stop loving me?!" She really said it more as a statement not a question though.

So I stared straight into her eyes and said, "NEVER. I will never stop loving you and if this is what this all disrespect not minding business is about then you can quit because I will always love you!"

Well, later while reading her books she was turning the pages for me. She would do them v-e-r-y-s-l-o-w-l-y which drives me batty, testing cutting her eyes to see my reaction. Remember me task oriented, lets get this done? So I said, "G turn the pages right or I will put the book up." Two pages fast and one slow so I put the book up mid-read. G flipped out in all out rage. I jumped into the shower. She called me a meanie. I told her I still loved her no matter what she called me so she called me dummy and stupid. Oh yes she did. Then she would say "sawwie" and then turn right back around and call me the three names again.

I told her that she would have to sleep in her own bed for the disrespect. Can I just tell you how much easier no consequences would be in the short term? But long term would be awful for her. So she cried harder, this time the rage turned to bargaining and fear about sleeping in her own bed or rather away from me. For me her sleeping in her own bed meant another set of sheets to wash in the morning due to the molluscum.

Two and half hours after the initial "when will you stop loving me" comment, she finally was asleep. I had explained to her that she was MINE whether she wanted to be or not. I told her that love was forever not just at a whim to end when she makes bad choices or when I am frustrated. (Notice no quotes? I don't remember the exact words I used so I am not quoting directly from the evening. Just the jist folks.)

I want this to be a simple discussion where she hears what I say and accepts it. But I know that is not what is happening. She hears it, and then doesn't believe it because, hey, one family already abandoned her. I had lain down with her to rub her back and comfort in her fears/tears and just got mad at the whole injustice adoption is to the kids. There is just so much loss first.

Yesterday was PCIT day. On the way from school I asked G if she wanted to talk about the not loving her statement and she said that she was afraid that I would stop loving her, get rid of her and give her back to the orphanage. So at least she was able to verbalize it to me. I had to tell the therapist and G let me tell her grammie later. We had a much better bed time last night (well until 1 am when I had to put anti-itch medicine on her over her very loud and painful protests but that is another post).

I don't want G to act well behaved just so I will love her. I also don't want her to act out to see if I will stop loving her. But the very fact that she verbalized what she did made me both feel hurt and happy at the same time. She has asked me what my fears are before and I have told her what things I fear. I hoped to get her to talking about hers too because lets face it, we all have fears. Maybe because I can tell her mine she is able to now tell me hers.

I have told her that it is all okay if she tells me she is frustrated with me or a decision I make but disrespect, ie name calling, is not ever okay. I also told her that it was not her fault for being adopted or being abandoned. I explained that for reasons beyond our control we may never know her family's reason for not parenting her. I told her that some of the reasons were due to government rules and unscrupulous or greedy people (reference to the LA times article on stolen Chinese babies) but that we may never know for sure. I told her what my guess was and explained that a guess is just that, not truth, just a thought about the situation (which I will not mention for her privacy) with her first family.

She was able to tell her therapist that her first family abandoned her (I wasn't in the room then though). I like to focus on the whole found side but something has to be lost, whether accidentally or on purpose, in the first place in order to be found. I told her that her family had other options but they made sure she would be found so in that sense they had loved her to keep her alive to be found alive. I also affirmed for her that it is a very confusing situation to be in. I wish it was me and not her dealing with it all. But this is her journey that I will walk beside, support and guide as best I can.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Reviews To Do

Upcoming review of an accent furniture site Monday, September 28, 2009. Stay tuned for the full review. I have some other business to take care of first like pulling a winner in the poster print give a way. There is still time to sign up, so go here to sign up, YEA!

Where Is the Outrage?

This is so offensive to me that I don't want it on my blog so I am linking to this blog friend of mine. She is a brave soul to keep this nightmare or retro Hitler Obama youth in her blog memory. If some school had done this with Reagan or Bush there would be HELL to pay. Why not now? hmmmm? Obama Youth Troops, coming to a school near you!

The teacher ought to be fired, PERIOD!

WOW She** Found Me

In an effort to ward off extremely negative comments (which I have received in the past) I have enabled comment moderation so your comment is posted now, and I am going to post it here if you don't mind for other A-parents to see the intent of the panel discussion.

Yes, we are parents first, that I do realize, and I want that balance for G and me. G and I do have some attachment realted issues though too. We will be working on attachment for a long time I think based on recent comments made by G. That is okay though because I am in it for the long haul even if she doesn't realize that yet.

"I enjoyed meeting and talking with you after the panel presented. I feel perhaps the audience and the panel did not understand one another fully. There was a disconnect at times, which didn't need to be there. I believe what the panel might have been trying to convey is that our kids are a bit less secure than we realize, and while they do want to talk about birth parents, foremost our kids need us to just be their 'parents' first. Sometimes in our effort to be wholly accepting of what it is to be adopted, parents of today go a bit overboard and put too much focus on the adoption part. Whereas in past eras adoption talk was avoided.

"Twenty years ago we (meaning me and the panel) met parents who avoided adoption talk, and today we meet parents who focus on it greatly, even blog about it, and it is sometimes center stage in a parents live, so that could be a driver in the child's life. I believe the panel was simply attempting to talk about achieving a balance, and perhaps it was misunderstood. But of course you are leading balanced lives, but within a ten minute conversation this was not realized."

I appreciate your kindness stopping by and clearing this up. You are very well respected in the adoption community and any guidance you have please fill free to comment anytime!!

Thanks again.

**Was asked to remove the name of the speaker due to her not wanting to be associated with the politics on this blog for fear that she would be associated instead of me the blog author. I am not listed in full name because I wish to protect G and me. She is a public author, I am not, but I will respect her wishes even though this post nor the one on which she commented were political.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Missing: One Buddha Painting

See this painting G did? I have lost it. I don't know where I put it. At least I had a picture of it. This was originally posted in October 2006. It looks so much like a buddha. It was done with finger paint folded in construction paper. This was before G was able to really get her fingers messy in the paint. This was the cleanest way to paint for her. Thinking back I suppose she had a texture issue with paint, a bit.

Vigilance Works

Okay the one thing I am coming to understand about molluscum contagiousum is nothing abso-effing-lutely-nothing that other than it being a virus that lives in wet conditions off the body there is not that much else known about it. Oh and that it is highly contagious and very common, did I mention the high contagiousness of it (is that a phrase?)? Other than that, vigilant consistent irritation will get rid of it. But it still takes forever weeks to months.

Okay so I am using benzoyl peroxide in the morning and zymaderm in the evening. That seems to be working along with showers only, no re-using wash cloths, towels or clothes including sleeping clothes. The bed is stripped every night with sheets being washed consistently (I have several sets of sheets for my bed so I can wash sheets every other day but I am doing laundry every day now).

G is again sleeping with me for the very reason of the whole stripping of bed clothes to wash every. dang. day. thing. I can't bear to strip two beds everyday and would have to since she only sleeps half the night in her own bed anyway. It is truly overwhelming to see her skin so attacked by this virus and to be so vigilant about getting rid of it.

If she changes her mind about wearing an article of clothing the discarded item will have to be washed before being returned to the regular shuffle of clothes. Absolutely nothing that has touched her is re-used before being washed!!

One thing I have also found out by questioning a friend dermatologist and the zymaderm makers is that molluscum doesn't hurt unless it is being irritated. But it can be irritated by outside sources like zymaderm, retinA, BP, or any other topical med or by the body's own immune system. Yes, your own immune system once engaged to fight the virus will cause the pain, itching and irritation that makes this whole thing a darned if you do and darned if you don't scenario. Doing nothing as long as immune system isn't engaged could take up to 4 years to run its course.

So I believe that I was able to engage G's immune system by applying the zymaderm to the bumps in the first place. I think the zymaderm as the outside irritation source also activated her immune system to fight the virus from the inside becoming the inside irritation source causing the rashes and pain. Maybe I want to believe this whether or not that is how it really works, but I will stick with my theory since no one truly knows how or what to treat MC with, effectively. Oh, and I may not be a doctor in real life but I play one my blog, heh.

I also know that for the most part dermatologists and pediatricians take a very laid back approach/attitude to the whole thing and say, "It will run its course but if you want to try this go ahead. I will indulge your need for a Rx with this. And it is very common to see in daycares etc." Or in other words, "Blah, blah blah. Wah, wah, wah. Yadda yadda yadda." This is what I and another MC mom are experiencing around here anyway. I also believe this is sort of the take the CDC has generally speaking.

Today, she looked a lot better. Maybe I have this thing beat this time around too. (I hope). Like the school nurse said to me, "It seems that some children just have a hard time and it isn't fair to dump something like this on them too. Why does God let them suffer this stuff too?" Of course that caught me off guard because I know this too: G will not be killed by MC. This is not a terminal disease (as far as I have been able to find) so although it is EXTREMELY FRUSTRATING it isn't a killer. Causer of mental breakdowns in mommies? Quite possibly, but at the end of the day G will survive this with her general good health intact. I on the other hand may need a good bottle of red whine wine or a straight jacket, heh.

PJTV Salutes Mr. Tax Law Writer Tax Evader

I think most people who have had to deal with the IRS or file for or pay taxes will appreciate this no matter your political persuasion.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Paul Rahe: Obama's gestures, part 3

"Hillsdale College Professor Paul Rahe writes to comment on the Obama administration's announced abandoment last week of the so-called Third Site of missile defense systems in Poland and the Czech Republic. Claremont Institute President Brian Kennedy addressed the subject in the Wall Street Journal Asia column "Obama's strategic confusion." Kennedy writes:
"The cancellation of the Third Site demonstrates the Obama administration's complete confusion over strategic defense." Professor Rahe argues that it also suggests Obama's peculiar animus against friends of the United States, if not the United States itself:

"In the Week in Review section of this past Sunday's New York Times, Robert Gates argues that the plan announced last Thursday by President Obama for shifting American policy regarding the defense of Europe against nuclear missile attacks will leave Europe in general and Eastern Europe in particular safer. I do not doubt that he believes what he says.

"I do not, however, find this consoling. Back in June, in two separate posts on Power Line -- here and here -- I drew attention to our current president's propensity for communicating different messages to different audiences by means of gestures of one kind or another. Here is what I then wrote:

"Barack Obama has a history of belittling his adversaries in just such a fashion. In April, 2008, he was caught on tape during a debate with Hillary Clinton, rubbing his hand across the right side of his face and extending his middle finger in an obscene gesture that many in the audience could see it but she could not, and when this provoked laughter on the part of his supporters he responded with a knowing smile. Later, after accepting his party's nomination, he did precisely the same thing during a debate with John McCain; and, after Sarah Palin remarked at the Republican National Convention that the only difference between a pit bull and a soccer mom was lipstick, he observed at a rally that a pig with lipstick is still a pig. Again, many in the audience caught the dig and they, too, were rewarded with a knowing smile.

"Obama is, in fact, a master of the insulting gesture. There is no other construction that one can put on his conduct towards Gordon Brown when the British prime minister paid him a visit shortly after his inauguration. First, in an ostentatious manner, he returned to the British embassy a bust of Winston Churchill that had been loaned to his predecessor. Then, when Brown presented him with a pen made from timber used in a British ship once involved in putting down the slave trade, he gave him in return a stack of movies on DVD which could not be played on machines sold in Europe.

"Were Obama a yokel, one might be able to explain this away. But a yokel he is not, and there are State Department protocol officers who are highly sensitive to the proprieties. It is no accident that, at about the same time, the White House press secretary intimated in the presence of members of the British press that there was no special relationship between the United States and Great Britain. Obama's gesture was a calculated insult -- meant to be understood only by those to whom it was directed.

"If we are to comprehend what is going on, we must pay close attention not only to what Obama says but to what he conveys in other ways. His tone is nearly always moderate but what he hints at and what he intimates by way of body language often convey the opposite Witness his warm embrace of Hugo Chavez. Behind the thin veneer of politeness, there is, I suspect, something ugly lurking. In the first of the autobiographies that he claims to have written, Barack Obama frequently speaks of himself as being in the grips of rage. We would do well to take him at his word. If we are to stop him from doing great damage to this country and to our friends and allies, we must take every opportunity that comes our way to unmask the man.

"We now know -- thanks to events in the Honduras -- the meaning of Obama's gesture with respect to the Venezuelan dictator, and I would suggest that we must regard in a similar light the timing of Obama's announcement of his administration's shift in policy regarding missile-defense in Europe. For it can hardly be an accident that he chose the seventieth anniversary of the Soviet Union's invasion of Poland as the occasion.

"We must keep in mind the fact that Obama is not a yokel and that the State Department is there to prevent an ill-informed president from unnecessarily stepping on toes. What happened last Thursday was a deliberate gesture. It was aimed at our allies in eastern Europe and at Russia, and it was recognized as such in Poland, the Czech Republic, and Russia. Vladimir Putin spoke of Obama's decision as a courageous act. Our friends in eastern Europe would not have used that adjective. A signal has been given, and they know the meaning.

"We are living in a dangerous time. It seems highly unlikely that Barack Obama will get his way in domestic affairs. The Democrats may control Congress, but they now fear a rout in 2010, and they are likely to tread with caution from now on. In foreign affairs, however, presidents have a relatively free hand, and this president has ample time to do damage to a country that, there is reason to suspect, he deeply hates."

Paul A. Rahe holds the Charles O. Lee and Louise K. Lee Chair in the Western Heritage at Hillsdale College. He is the author, most recently, of Montesquieu and the Logic of Liberty: War, Religion, Commerce, Climate, Terrain, Technology, Uneasiness of Mind, the Spirit of Political Vigilance, and the Foundations of the Modern Republic, published today, and of Soft Despotism, Democracy's Drift: Montesquieu, Rousseau, Tocqueville, and the Modern Prospect.

Monday, September 21, 2009

So Surprised (and other ramblings)...

that no one wants to try to win the poster in the give a way (post below). At this point only one comment would be needed to win it. I suspect everyone is so busy they haven't any time to pop around? I am reading everyone through google reader and though I haven't commented on many I still read the blogs. My computer is so s-l-o-w that if I have more than one or two windows open I will get shut down fairly quickly so it makes reading slow going as well as commenting practically non-existent.

So this weekend was an interesting one. I attended a conference with Terra Trevor spoke. There was also a panel made up of 4 adult Korean adoptees. We heard their stories and were able to ask questions.

If anyone has ever stopped by this blog and read about some of the conversations G and I have had they will see that G is interested in her adoption story, her race vs. my race, her first family/foster family/third(and final) family etc. She has also asked about returning to China as a visit being concerned with stuff like what they will call her, since she knows she had one name and I gave her another name. She is very interested and talks about it. Now somethings were put into her head because we read all the "I Love You Like Crazy Cakes" and "A Mother for Choco" and other such kids adoption story books. Not to mention I have told her how I came to get her and we have looked at photo albums, video etc. All that to say this, G has already as a 4 year old asked about finding her bio mom/China mom/tummy mom (call her what you will) and yes to a 4 year old wanting to find her has different meanings and emotions packed into it than for me hearing it.

So out of the 4 panelists I believe two have successfully made contact with their bio families or maybe one made successful contact and two unsuccessfully while the 4th didn't try nor has interest. 3/4 made the homeland tour, one had passing interest and let it pass. But I asked the panel what their extended family said about finding the bio family because (I prefaced the ?? with G's unique line of questioning) and they basically said there must be something wrong for her to be thinking along those lines at that age?!?!?!?

Then I think back to the kids we hang out with and according to their parents, they aren't asking the same questions either. Of course they may be but not talking to me about it. Who knows. But I can't believe G is the ONLY child who wants to know who her first family was, or if I knew she was going to be honey tan rather than peach like me.

Now when I asked the question to the panel maybe they assumed that G always talks about this stuff? To which I will say, "No, no she doesn't." But when I am given an opportunity to ask an adult adoptee questions (cuz they opened themselves up to the questions) along the line of adoption etc I am not going to talk about the normal everyday conversations we have with G just being a kid; I am going to ask and mention the adoption/race related stuff we talk about. I also no longer bring it up in casual conversation to G. She leads all conversations about it now.

I mentioned this to Terra (I can call her Terra now cuz we are like BFF now), Ms. Trevor I mean, after the meeting she re-affirmed me, and said basically she supports the panel but that I have laid the ground work for G to think and talk about her questions and concerns without it being forced on her and without me being closed too her concerns/questions. This panel said out right that adopted kids won't talk to their parents about race or adoption stuff and that if they aren't talking about it they aren't thinking about it. This is totally not NOT what I am reading/hearing from other adult adoptees in the blogging community or by some China a-parents in the blogging community.

I appreciated the panel for the different perspective. One of the panelists as an 18 year old was able to do the Motherland Tour from Holt and then escort a child back for adoption (his was a 3 month old boy). I asked him about that and he said that it really brought the vulnerability of that particular child and of his own self as an escorted child to reality (he was adopted at age 4). Only one panelist claimed to have needed therapy to work out her stuff, which I appreciated the honesty (and who of us hasn't needed therapy not even being adopted?).

Three panelists have travelled back to Korea at least once or more. One said he was glad he didn't go after hearing the horrible conditions as described by the three. It was interesting to hear these panelists talk about how glad they are to be Americans even having being adopted. They didn't really feel regret for the loss of the culture that seems to be prevalent in some of the adult adoptees I read. I was glad I went.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

It Is About Time For a Give-A-Way! YEA!!!

I am giving away one (1) 18"x24” rolled poster print like what you can find here: poster printing or here:
large format printing
for a little fall happy. Everyone needs a little happy every now and again. I think this will make my US readers reader very happy.

You can have up to two entries and here's how: Enter by leaving me a comment (1st entry) explaining how you would use the Poster Print if you win, and blog (2nd entry) about the giveaway linking back to this post as well as to (If you don't know how to do that let me know and I will send you instructions.) Now please include an e-mail address so that I can contact you, and so that the company can contact you. If the e-mail is not attached the entry is void.

This is open to US residents only (sorry Canada and other countries unless you ship to an addy in the US. Got friends?) and includes FREE UPS Ground Shipping for US residents (to US residents). So if you win, you pay absolutely nothing not even shipping! How awesome. Time to get that big scary poster made of your cuties in their costumes just in time for Halloween. Or get the grands' Christmas gift ready of the kids in all their Christmas finery.

Entries accepted until midnight on Friday, September 25, 2009, and I will announce the winner on Saturday, September 26, 2009, or Sunday, September 27, 2009 whenever I remember! YEA!

This is giveaway is sponsored by

Pray for the Persecuted Church

Another sister arrested for her faith. Check out the Voice of the Martyrs ministry or at

"Location: PakistanArrested: June 2009
Asia is the wife of 50-year-old Ashiq Masih, and their family is one of only three Christian families in a village of more than 1,500 families. Many of the local women work on the farm of Muslim landowner Muhammad Idrees, including Asia. During their work many of the Muslim women have pressured Asia to renounce Christianity and accept Islam. In June, the pressure became especially strong. On Friday, June 19, there was an intense discussion among the women about their faith, with the Muslim women telling Asia about Islam. Asia responded by telling them about her faith in Christ."

Update on the Imprisoned Chinese House Pastor

"Since mid-July, the petition for Gao Zhisheng has recorded over 110,000 signatures, calling for his release from the custody of the Chinese government. According to a contact, Press Secretary Baodong from the Chinese Embassy in Washington DC recently asserted that Gao Zhisheng was officially held on charges for attacking the Chinese government, and was released on parole in August. Inside resources with ChinaAid can confirm that Gao is alive, but his condition and whereabouts are still unknown.

"We thank all FreeGao supporters for your concerns and contributions, and ask that you continue to raise awareness of Gao's case until he is freed, with his full rights as a Chinese citizen lawfully restored. While the Chinese government has verbally decided to acknowledge the case, there can be no resolution with his absence and unknown condition still weighing on the minds and hearts of his supporters.

"Thanks to your help, ChinaAid has persisted in meeting and working with concerned officials from governments of the free world, presenting the petition signatures as a sign of international support - and Gao Zhisheng's case has not been forgotten.

"On September 8, 2009, eleven Members of the US House of Representatives issued a letter to President Hu Jintao of the People’s Republic of China, requesting him to uphold rule of law in China, according to the Chinese Constitution and their international agreements. The bipartisan letter specifically addresses the prolonged absence of human rights lawyer Gao Zhisheng.
View the Congressional Letter to President Hu Jintao, 9/8/2009, at

"Please continue to share the petition drive with your friends. Encourage them to learn about Gao's story and to take action at

"Gao's story of persecution is only one of many. But it is also a key story in exposing the truth behind China's Communist regime and its abuse of human rights. Your signature and compassion makes a difference. Take Action.

"By taking action, you have joined an international community concerned about preserving human dignity and basic human rights for China and the world. The Free Gao Campaign will continue gathering petition signatures and presenting them to authorities, and will not relent until Gao's whereabouts and safety are known. Please continue to "speak out" within your sphere of influence and in prayer, until Gao Zhisheng's freedom becomes reality!"

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Student Sues Teacher Over Anti-Creation Comments

Good for this student. It is time to stand up to the bullying in the classroom of evolutionary athiests. Evolutionism is not a proven fact and should not be taught as such. It is a religion itself at best and it ruining education.

Joe Wilson, R-SC

My hero! He did nothing less than what Dems did in 2005 with the whole Boo-ing-Bush-in-his-speech thing. How come it wasn't racism for Dems to boo Bush, but it is racism for Wilson to tell Obama the truth? Obama is lying about what is and isn't in the health care bill. Over and over it has been proven that he is lying. If Obama is opening his mouth, he is lying.

Jimmeh Cahteh is a by gone pres trying to stay in the view of cameras. He really needs to just retire back to his peanut farm and leave politics to the big boys like Wilson who can call it like it is! Wilson shouldn't have apologized to Obama either. Obama deserves the truth not the whole pack of lies that continue through his "advisers" like Axelrod who didn't know who those tea party protesters were. Yea right. Condescension goes nowhere and Obama's bullies need to be very aware.


We will clean the HOUSE in 2010! Watch for it.

They're BAA-AACK [cue scary music]

And worse than ever. Just in time for Halloween, even. The molluscum I mean is back on G's skin. This time it started off as two bumps on her hip bone and right below her belly button. So like the good mom I am I started with the zymaderm treatment. Like I have been told, the bumps reacted to the med because they are molluscum bumps, but then things went down hill. We are already over 6 weeks of dealing with this. I don't know where exactly she got this (probably the pool) but she didn't get it at school.

This time the bumps hurt and itch terribly and looks just like staph, 'cept different. G has, besides the initial two, one on her back hip (think shot location), one under her right shoulder blade, one on the top of her head in her crown, one in the nape of her neck, a billion on the tops of her feet (started out as 3 in a cluster exploded by this morning) and a million on her left knee (where it started last time). She also has the molluscum rash below her left breast and on the right side under her arm/chest/side area, on both shoulders, a few hard bumps down each arm, behind her knee, and several bumps down each leg.

Okay let me summarize the molluscum locations for you: ALL THE HELK OVER HER BODY! Including but not limited to her face!

So I took her to a dermatologist (Dr. Pimple, not his real name but his name really is very similar to his profession) yesterday along with all her meds/creams/lotions/potions we have been using to find out if we are treating what we think we are and if not then what the helk is this?!?!?

Over the weekend when G spent the night with her grandparents and itched, they used my dad's eczema Rx lotion to stop the itch. Oh yes we share when necessary. The funny thing is the Dr. didn't seem to care about the share because he said it would stop the itch. He didn't give us a Rx for the eczema cream either just said to keep using what we had, heh.

Dr. Pimple did give us a Rx for benzoyl peroxide 5% that I took to Walgreens to be filled. On the way home from big city (BC) we took the Rx to Walgreens in big city at 3:52pm. Know why I know that time? 'Cause that was the time I called my mom to tell her the Dr.'s diagnosis.

You wanna know when we left Walgreens? An hour and half later!!!!!!!! Without the Rx. See Dude put the order in and said it would be about 20 mins so we waited. We waited because we no longer live in big city so leaving wouldn't have been wise. I took G to the bathroom, we looked at toys, we looked zit cream for me, and then I figured Rx would be ready so we headed to the pharmacy area. I waited for an opportunity to ask a girl about the Rx to which she replied she had no idea where it was but would look for it. Then she said she wasn't sure if she had the stuff or not but would check on it. [Insert tons of time passing here].

Remember Dude who took our Rx? Well he passed by us as he was coming off of his hour break. He asked if we hadn't been helped yet, and I told him that we had not really. So he went to check on it only to return and say they didn't have it did I wish for him to call another Walgreens. So I told him to call the one in home town (HT) which he didn't know even existed, hometown not just walgreens store there. I managed to get the number from 411 and gave it to him. Apparently he misdialed and told me that it wasn't a good number?!?!?! So I called it, got right through. He argued and said he dialed the same number but got an operator. To which I say, "Whatever." Then the girl said she found it on the system, but it was long distance. [Insert HUGE EYE ROLL here]. I yelled, "NO it isn't." [Insert "dumbarse" here]. Since I had the HT pharmacy I asked them to use my cell to tell them and the girl said, "We can't talk on cell phones." YOU ARE EFFING KIDDING ME? The HT pharmacy who I had on my cell said the BC pharmacy finally had the HT pharmacist on the line, and that she would tell me what they said.

She came back on the phone and said, "They are going to tell you that your Rx will be filled when you get here." Oh Thank you, Thank you. But BC pharmacy employees didn't tell me. We both hung up, and they didn't even look my way. G and I left none too soon after to check some stuff out at the photo section. G started spinning and jumping and stuff at the counter and I looked at the check out guy while pointing to G and said, "Do you see this?" He said smirking, "Yea, she is bouncing off the wall." I almost climbed over the counter and pounded him. I said, not half calmly, "YEA SHE IS AND THAT IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU ARE 5 AND STUCK IN A PHARMACY FOR AN HOUR AND A HALF BEFORE THEY TELL YOU THEY CAN'T FILL THE RX!!!!!"

We left at 5:30pm to head to Taco Hail. Trying to keep it G rated y'all. Taco Hail greeted me with the warmth of the iceman and then tried to argue with me about changing the kid's meal. But that is another story in and of itself. Oh and chunk of bacon in a taco supreme that wasn't supposed be there, BLECK nuff said.

Needless to say, G was really good considering the evening even though she did get in trouble, had a melt down last night that continued into breakfast this a.m. and has an itch virus attacking her skin.

By the way, if you are wondering why I didn't just take the Rx somewhere else when they didn't have it? That wasn't given me as an option. I have had that happen at another non-walgreens pharmacy, and they usually keep the Rx once it has been entered in the system. Granted I could have pitched a big hissy but the only other pharmacy I would have used was closed by that time anyway. I should have had a clue when G wasn't in their computer system because we always use another pharmacy for her Rx, one that is close to her pediatrician's office. Because I HATE WALGREENS.

Today at school (I took her because it is raining) I spoke with the nurse and tried to explain what was going on. She is going to look it up on the computer. I told her it was contagious but that G was covered and had been instructed to not touch anyone.

The nurse asked, "The doctor said she could come to school?" I said, "Well, yes. And I can't keep her out 6 weeks or 6 months." She agreed. It takes so long to clear it up with treatment and longer without. It really is a nightmare. Mostly it is benign, still contagious, but not painful or itchy. Sadly, for G she is one of the lucky ones [Insert deep sarcasm here] that the bumps are both painful and itchy.

She has been wearing flipflops here (southern city you know?) but now with the MC on the tops of her feet, her flops are now contagious until I figure out how to clean them to kill it. Chlorine doesn't kill it because pool water is a number one place to pick it up. So she is relegated to socks (bumps covered) and shoes. Since it is raining however, I don't want the already irritated feet to be wet on top of that so I took her to school and physically carried her inside in order to avoid puddles. Rain puddles are a kid magnet no matter what.

I am so ready for cold cool weather so I can put G comfortably in long sleeves and not feel guilty about the breakout and exposed skin. Dr. Pimple compared this to warts how everyone is susceptible but not everyone will get it. It is a virus but everyone doesn't get it. The web site implied that probably everyone at one point has had it and didn't know it wasn't just a zit or something because like I said, generally they are benign.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

The Cost of Conversion

"Marzieh and Maryam have been in prison for more than six months and need our urgent prayer. Their health has deteriorated and Elam Ministries reported, both women have lost weight because of sicknesses and lack of nutrition. Marzieh has a tooth infection which is being treated by painkillers. If the infection spreads, experts say, her health status could become critical."
There have been more Christians world wide murdered for their beliefs in the 20th century than all the previous ones combined. Please pray for the release of Marzieh and Maryam who converted from Islam to Christianity. They have been requested strongly to recant their faith and belief. They are in jail for being infidels. Physically they are suffering. Spiritually as well, pray God will show Himself mightily to them while in prison.
There is also a pastor in China who was taken prisoner but the Chinese government will not tell anyone where they are keeping him. Please pray for the release of this house pastor.

Monday, September 14, 2009


Patrick Swayze, August 18, 1952-September 14, 2009

A Little of This and a Little of That

Friday G woke up very weepy. She wasn't whining but tears flowed pretty quickly and easily. She was telling me of her dream, and I asked if it was a bad one since she totally beat the helk out of me all night, even at one point standing up in the bed talking jibberish. My question didn't go over well so she started weeping, not full on crying just weeping.

Well, I got her off to school and all seemed fine. I headed up to read to her class later that morning, as asked for 9/11. I got there while her class was in art class, so I waited. Then her class came in the room, and she had the most dog-down face I had seen in a while. I asked her what was the matter as she climbed in my lap, putting her face in my neck and squeezing me tight. The other kids said that G had said, "That is not a good J" to the teacher. I couldn't for the life of me figure out what they were talking about why a badly written "J" would matter to G. G was just crying hard, now. Finally I got the story out: The teacher wrote the kids' names on their art project and G had said, "That is not a good 'G'" to the teacher. But she said, "sorry." I wasn't angry at all. On the contrary I thought it was funny but I didn't laugh either. We later had the whole dis-respect talk, and I spoke to the teacher. All's good there.

You may be asking yourself where the whole "J" vs "G" came in? Or not. Anyway, we live in the south so sometimes in southern-speak J and G sound a lot alike coming from kindergartners anyway. G was so embarrassed and upset. She just didn't want to talk about it anymore but she did shed a few more tears.

So Friday night she was spending the night with the grandparents. She had wanted to go home with me from school early due to her embarrassment, but I refused to allow it. But I did take her out to her grandparents after school. She was a bit more bossy than normal and still a bit weepy.

Saturday morning came and I got to their house before anyone was out of bed. I just went to the computer room, my mom got up a bit later and joined me for a bit. She then went to the den to read or something. After 8am I heard G talking to grandad in the bedroom. They were both left sleeping. I opened the door, and G was standing very still and sort of sad/confused. When she saw me she said, "Grammie left." I picked her up and again G was weepy. I said, "Baby, she didn't leave." G said, "Yes she did" and started to cry. I carried her in to see my mom so she would know grammie didn't leave.

Later in the day she and grandad were outside when she came in to use the potty, he walked out to the garden. She went back out to where she had left him (on the trampoline) but came in weeping that grandad had left. She climbed into my lap just like at school and cried into my neck.

Both my mom and I knew something was very wrong with G but couldn't figure out what exactly. She didn't feel hot enough for a temperature. She did have a snotty nose, and that is never good. We ended up giving her tylenol and pediacare cold medicine, for the snot, to help make her feel better. Maybe the whole school thing caught up to her and she was just very very tired. I dunno.

G, the no nap taker, even fell asleep in the rocking chair about 2:30ish and slept a bit over an hour. She was still weepy Saturday evening, but by Sunday morning she was back to her old self. I have no idea what happened to her.

Today she still seemed to feel okay. Ye ole pig illness got the principal of her school last week so I know it is there. I am just praying to get through this school year without illness. Oh and I think the molluscum is back and worse this time 'round. UGH! and double UGH!

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Separate But Equal?

I wonder if anyone has heard that HomeDepot is holding a separate project time for gays and lesbians and their kids. On Saturdays, HD hosts a building project time open to the general public for kids and whomever to participate. In order to help continue to legitimize a life style that harms individuals, HD will have a separate time for gays and lesbians to bring their kids to make a project together.

Now my understanding is that even on the regular project time it isn't limited to parents only and children but anyone could take a child/ren to build together. Like I personally wouldn't want to do this with G but her grandaddy might. Or maybe an uncle/aunt or neighbor friend would want to take his neighbor's child. I am sure the regular project time isn't discriminatory in that way, so I am wondering why HD feels the need to make a separate but equal time for lesbians and gays. I mean what do they do different that requires a separate time? If HD opened up a separate project time for African Americans and their children or Asians and their children wouldn't there be a protest of HD? What about a conservatives and their children time or democrats and their children time? Ridiculous right?

What will gay and lesbian parents do at the project time that would make others so uncomfortable? I mean all bedroom activities should be left home for straights too so I know that isn't why the separate time is needed. If normalcy is craved in the gay/lesbian circles then why segregate? Maybe their kids become uncomfortable with their gay/lesbian parents because deep down there is a sense of right and wrong built into us all? With only about 2-3% of the population claiming to be homosexual I can't imagine it would be overly crowded, so space shouldn't be the issue.

Nope, it looks to me like HD is stepping outside of the retail market and into the wrong side of right morally speaking. Just like Pepsi sponsoring gay parades, HD wants to be friends with a political minority to push an agenda that harms individuals. It makes me sad that corporations take stands on the wrong side of right because that isn't helping anyone.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Stop Funding Abortion NOW~! CALL TO ACTION!

“No matter how President Obama and Congress change the structure of the health care reform proposals — whether there is a public option, co-op, exchange, or the like — any legislation that provides government funding for health care must contain explicit language that excludes abortion.” (from AUL Action Staff Counsel Mary Harned, italics by blog owner)

Check out Americans United for Life for the response to Obama's speech on Obamacare. One of the amendments to the current obamacare bill: "An amendment to H.R. 3200 permits and may require abortion coverage in the public health insurance plan, and permits taxpayer funding of private plans that cover elective abortion through the provision of affordability credits " Again, italics are mine, blog owner.

If you don't want to support the killing of unborn adults (because don't most unborn babies grow into adults?) then slam the Blue Dog Dems and bi-partisan Repubs with phone calls, e-mails and letters to demand they stop Obama NOW!

Getting Beyond the Obama Rhetoric on Obamacare

Not sure how many of you watched the Obamacare speech, I didn't. I knew he would lie so what was the point. But for those of you who couldn't see past the words to the truth of Obama's lies, Point of View Ministries made it all nice and tidy for us. Just because Obama doesn't use the words "death panel" doesn't mean that there won't be death panels.

"In his speech, President Obama charged that his healthcare plan had been attacked with "bogus claims," "misinformation" and that it had been the victim of "misunderstanding."
As he went through the list of these "key controversies," he included a number of things we have said, both on the air and in previous emails. His rebuttals included many half-truths and, according to at least one congressman, outright lies. Now it is our turn to "set the record straight:"
Death Panels
"The best example is the claim, made not just by radio and cable talk show hosts, but prominent politicians, that we plan to set up panels of bureaucrats with the power to kill off senior citizens. Such a charge would be laughable if it weren't so cynical and irresponsible. It is a lie, plain and simple."
President Obama proposed the creation of the Institute for Comparative Effectiveness and it was funded to the tune of $1.1 billion through the stimulus bill. The purpose of ICE is to evaluate the clinical effectiveness as well as the cost-effectiveness of medicines and medical treatments. While such an organization is good in theory (i.e. giving doctors and medical professionals better information about what treatments work) in practice it has been anything but.
The clearest example of where this is headed is the National Institute of Health and Clinical Excellence (NICE) in Great Britain. This bureaucracy determines what drugs and treatments are allowed and in what circumstances for the national healthcare system in Great Britain. In many instances, NICE has disallowed the usage of lifesaving treatments or medications on the basis of cost, condemning individuals to an otherwise avoidable death earning them the title of "death panels."
Under the public option health plan proposed by the president there will be a limitation of resources and it will fall to ICE or a similar agency of the government to determine how those resources are allocated. President Obama himself stated earlier this year that only people who will get "healthier" should get treatment. Where does that leave the elderly, the disabled and those with degenerative diseases?
Ezekiel Emmanuel, Health Policy Advisor, Office of Management and Budget (and brother to Obama's chief of staff) has written, "Savings will require changing how doctors think about their patients. Doctors take the Hippocratic oath too seriously, as an imperative to do everything for the patient regardless of the cost or effects on others." His perspective is, there are limited healthcare resources and before a doctor prescribes a test or treatment for one of his patients he should consider if those resources would be better spent on someone else.
In response to the assertion by many pro-family groups that abortion would be covered by the national healthcare plan and paid for with our tax dollars Obama said, "And one more misunderstanding I want to clear up under our plan, no federal dollars will be used to fund abortions, and federal conscience laws will remain in place."
At times like these I remember Bill Clinton's statement, "It depends upon what the meaning of the word ‘is' is." It has been argued that the Hyde amendment would prevent federal funds from being used to pay for abortions under the healthcare plan. There is also the amendment Rep. Capps has offered to specifically say that the healthcare plan cannot use federal dollars to fund abortions.
However, this is a distinction without a difference. The proposed health insurance exchange will be funded by the federal government as well as premiums paid by individuals and employers. It can pay for abortions and claim it only used the funds that came from individuals and employers, not the federal government.
This is the defense that Planned Parenthood has used for years to defend their federal funding. It is basically the same as telling us that the government will use federal funds to pay for abortions but will only use tax dollars that come from pro-abortion individuals.
As to the assertion that "federal conscience laws will remain in place," we have never said the healthcare bill would remove these protections. The protections were created primarily by an executive order, not legislation. The Obama administration made it known earlier in the year that they planned to rescind that executive order, removing those protections for healthcare workers.
Because of the outrage this announcement generated, the administration has yet to move forward with their plans. This could be done at any time literally with the stroke of the president's pen giving no opportunity for discussion or debate.
Coverage for Illegal Immigrants
Then there is the statement that caused Rep. Joe Wilson's outburst, "You lie!" President Obama stated, "There are also those who claim that our reform effort will insure illegal immigrants. This, too, is false the reforms I'm proposing would not apply to those who are here illegally."
While the bill making its way through congress doesn't specifically say it will fund healthcare for illegal immigrants, the bill does nothing to prevent it and so far any attempt to remedy that problem has been defeated by the Democrats.
As the bill now stands, if someone who is in the country illegally applies for coverage under the public option there is no requirement to show proof of citizenship so the application could not be refused for that reason.
You Can Keep Your Plan
"Nothing in this plan will require you or your employer to change the coverage or the doctor you have. Let me repeat this: nothing in our plan requires you to change what you have."
Because the majority of Americans have their health insurance through their employer, they may lose their plan if their employer chooses to switch to the public plan to save costs. Independent experts all agree that the legislation proposed would result in millions of Americans losing the coverage they have—the Congressional Budget Office believes several million, the Urban Institute up to 47 million, and the Lewin Group as many as 114 million.
Increasing the Deficit
"I will not sign a plan that adds one dime to our deficits—either now or in the future. Period."
According to the non-partisan Congressional Budget Office, H.R. 3200 would increase deficits by $239 billion over ten years and the legislation "would probably generate substantial increases in federal budget deficits" thereafter. The Peter G. Peterson Foundation released a study today, which found that in its second decade, H.R. 3200 would increase federal deficits by more than $1 trillion.
"Not a dollar of the Medicare trust fund will be used to pay for this plan."
"Reducing the waste and inefficiency in Medicare and Medicaid will pay for most of this plan. Much of the rest would be paid for with revenues from the very same drug and insurance companies that stand to benefit from tens of millions of new customers."
The two statements seem contradictory and if H.R. 3200 is enacted it would severely damage Medicare. According to the Congressional Budget Office, the cuts to Medicare Advantage plans included in the current legislation would result in millions of seniors losing their current plan. So much for "nothing in this plan requires you to change what you have."
"Add it all up, and the plan I'm proposing will cost around $900 billion over ten years."
The Congressional Budget Office review of H.R. 3200 as introduced, found that the legislation would spend approximately $1.6 trillion over ten years, but what's $700 billion among friends?
"Well the time for bickering is over. The time for games has passed. Now is the season for action. Now is when we must bring the best ideas of both parties together, and show the American people that we can still do what we were sent here to do.
"I will continue to seek common ground in the weeks ahead. If you come to me with a serious set of proposals, I will be there to listen. My door is always open."
Perhaps it slipped the president's mind that on May 13, House Republican leaders all wrote the President a letter reading in part: "We write to you today to express our sincere desire to work with you and find common ground on the issue of health care reform….We respectfully request a meeting with you to discuss areas for potential common ground on health care reform." Nearly four months later, that meeting has yet to take place.
Moving Quickly
"We will do this by creating a new insurance exchange a marketplace where individuals and small businesses will be able to shop for health insurance at competitive prices. . . This exchange will take effect in four years, which will give us time to do it right."
Four years? Isn't that just after your campaign to be re-elected ends? Why is it you don't want the American people to see what this plan will really do to their healthcare until AFTER you ask them to give you a second term?
The debate over healthcare reform is moving forward quickly and your congressional representatives will come under increasing pressure to support the president's plan. Please contact your congressman and senators right away to let them know where you stand on healthcare reform.
Warren Kelley, President, Point of View Ministries"

Friday, September 11, 2009

Thursday, September 10, 2009

G Conversations and Other Updates

The other night in the car, G was playing with something and somehow hurt her finger. She said, "Ouch, It's the dickens."

Last night about 11pmish, G:"Mama!"
Me: "What?"
G, exasperated: "You Know!"
G has gotten in a habit of waking up some time in the middle of the night to come get in bed with me. She only has to yell my name and I tell her to come on and get in bed with me. Last night however, I hadn't even been in bed long nor had I been asleep. I didn't want her to wake up that early and crawl in bed with me so I questioned her which confused her a bit as she still gathered her blankets and bunny to come to me.

This morning getting ready for school G said, "Mama, I have a bad taste in my mouth."
I said, "Well, what does it taste like? Does it taste like peanut butter? milk? toothpaste?"
To which G answered no then said, "No it tastes like thin."
I said, "Thin! I don't know what thin tastes like."
She said, "You know grandaddy? if he was taller and thin? That is what it tastes like."
I am guessing she has sinus drainage making her throat raw but the whole taller thin grandaddy thing threw me off a bit this morning.

School for G is going very well. She never tells me anything about school though when I pick her up. She is still processing the day apparently but as we start settling down for the night she opens up and tells things about school. She loves science. One day they learned about sea shells. Yesterday they learned about "live" as in live animals.

They studied that a cheetah is the fastest animal in the world. Then she asked me what the slowest animal is to which I replied "probably a sloth or something." Then she said, "Well, we didn't wurhn (learn) about sloths but maybe a snail or something? What is the meddlist (middle) fast animal?"
I said, "I guess man? I don't know. What did you learn was in the middle?"
She said, "I didn't wurhn about the meddle, I'm asking you!"

For lunch she is eating humus (thanks for the reminder, ya'll) with chips, soynut butter (and the suggestion) sandwiches, mac n cheese with green peas in it, spaghetti, white rice with green peas and soy sauce, and/or fruit. For sides I send seaweed snack, pretzels, chips, or fruit roll up. I send water to drink because she gets milk for breakfast and supper. I am already bored to tears with it all but she does eat it pretty well.

As far as the school work goes, she is really doing well. Somethings she already knows how to do. She is picking up her sight words very well. She helps me read her bedtime books (I stop at the sight words and she reads them, takes forever but you know). She is even recognizing the use of sight words in language. She still loves her teacher and still has a child playing with her hair daily.

She is not worn out from kindergarten though so I have to get her energy out when I pick her up from school. Yesterday we stopped at a playground and walking track. Sometimes we put up the jumper. Sometimes we ride bikes or rather she rides and I walk. But she is going to sleep by 8pm which is huge!! She doesn't really like getting up in the morning but over all things are going well with the whole school routine.

Tuesday, September 08, 2009

Justice For Lavender

Here is my letter I sent to the Sacramento DA's office to bring justice for the murder of Lavender. We as an adoption community stood behind Sabrina in the unfairness of racial discrimination with the CC*AA. We rejoiced at her homecoming and worried through the first series of surgeries. She was a precious child who needs the adoption community now more than ever. She isn't just a statistic.

"I would like to ask that your office do everything in your power to bring justice to the murderer/s of Lavender Banks. This child is more than a statistic. She was a child made in the image of her Creator, God. She was loved and is remembered in the China adoption community.

"I came to know of Sabrina Banks' fight to bring Lavender home through the adoption community via Sabrina's own words and requests for help. Many of us prayed and/or wrote letters on Sabrina's behalf trusting that the social workers conducted the home study investigations with due diligence. The adoption community rejoiced when Lavender came home to her forever family. We are now likewise in mourning for her untimely and cruel death.

"The system failed Lavender. Because of this, I am asking that all resources are used in the investigation to bring whoever did this to justice. Lavender is not going to be forgotten. If Sabrina is responsible, she deserves the weight of the law to fall upon her."

May God have mercy on her soul.

For more information and a video of Lavender before her death go to A Bouquet of Blessings.

Max Lucado Has Done It Again

He has written a book that goes right to the heart of where our nation is in fear. His new book, Fearless, out today, will help you see the truth about fear. One quote from the book I really liked is "Fear, mismanaged, leads to sin. Sin leads to hiding. Since we've all sinned, we all hide, not in bushes, but in eighty-hour workweeks, temper tantrums, and religious busyness. We avoid contact with God." How true that is.

I have begun a journey to dispel the fear in my own life. This fear I have lived with since the time I realized the world was not safe and my family couldn't keep me safe. I was five. Ever since then fear has truly been a factor in my life decisions or lack of decisions. Fear has even played a role in my striving for perfection (which no one attains).

Funny how this past week's three day conference also touched on fear, I have this book on conquering fear and my own realization of the need to conquer fear all came at the same time. Really though isn't that how God works? Doesn't He put all the tools, people or events in our hands to work with Him in our lives? Doesn't He love us enough to not leave us in our sinful fearing lives? He came to change us to be more like Him, not leave us living in the mire that sin makes of our lives.

Max Lucado has written a book that God can and will use in your life if you are needing encouragement and courage to face the fears in your life. Check it out. Don't just take my word for it. Read it then look to the One who said, "Fear not...."

Sunday, September 06, 2009

Why parents don't trust the Educator-in-Chief and his comrades

Michelle Malkin (my Hero)

"They think we're crazy. "They" are the sneering defenders of Barack Obama who can't fathom the backlash against the president's nationwide speech to schoolchildren next Tuesday. "We" are parents with eyes wide open to the potential for politicized abuse in America's classrooms.

"Ask moms and dads in Farmington, Utah, who discovered this week that their children sat through a Hollywood propaganda video promoting the cult of Obama. In the clip, a parade of entertainers vow to flush their toilets less, buy hybrid vehicles, end poverty and world hunger, and commit to "service" for "change." Actress Demi Moore leads the glitterati in a collective promise 'to be a servant to our president.' Musician Anthony Kiedis pledges 'to be of service to Barack Obama.'

"The campaign commercial crescendos with the stars and starlets asking their audience: 'What's your pledge?'

"This same "Do Something" ethos infected the U.S. Department of Education teachers guides accompanying the announcement of Obama's speech -- until late Wednesday, that is, when the White House removed some of the activist language exhorting students to come up with ways to "help the president." Education Secretary Arne Duncan had disseminated the material directly to principals across the country -- circumventing elected school board members and superintendents now facing neighborhood revolts.

"O's bureaucrats can whitewash offending language from the Sept. 8 speech-related documents, but they can't remove the taint of left-wing radicalism that informs Obama and his education mentors. A spokesman maintained that the speech is "about the value of education and the importance of staying in school as part of his effort to dramatically cut the dropout rate." But the historical subtext is far less innocent.

"Obama served with Weather Underground terrorist and neighbor Bill Ayers on the Chicago Annenberg Challenge education initiative. Downplaying academic achievement in favor of left-wing radical activism in the public schools is rooted in Ayers' pedagogical philosophy. Obama served as the program's first chairman of the board, while Ayers steered its curricular policy. The two oversaw grants to welfare rights enterprise ACORN and to avowed communist Michael Klonsky -- a close pal of Ayers and member of the militant Students for a Democratic Society. SDS served as a precursor to the violent Weather Underground organization.

"As investigative journalist Stanley Kurtz reported, Klonsky and Ayers teamed up on the so-called "small schools movement" to steer schoolchildren away from core academics to left-wing politicking on issues of 'inequity, war and violence.'

"A cadre of like-minded educators and national service administrators across the country share the same core commitment to transforming themselves from imparters of knowledge to transformers of society. The "change" agenda trains students to think only about what they should do for Obama -- and rarely to contemplate how his powers and ambitions should be limited and restrained.

"Ayers preached his education-as-"social justice" agenda to his "comrades" at the World Education Forum in Caracas, Venezuela, three years ago: 'This is my fourth visit to Venezuela, each time at the invitation of my comrade and friend Luis Bonilla, a brilliant educator and inspiring fighter for justice. Luis has taught me a great deal about the Bolivarian Revolution and about the profound educational reforms underway here in Venezuela under the leadership of President [Hugo] Chavez. We share the belief that education is the motor-force of revolution, and I've come to appreciate Luis as a major asset in both the Venezuelan and the international struggle -- I look forward to seeing how he and all of you continue to overcome the failings of capitalist education as you seek to create something truly new and deeply humane.'

"Ayers continued: 'I walked out of jail and into my first teaching position -- and from that day until this I've thought of myself as a teacher, but I've also understood teaching as a project intimately connected with social justice. After all, the fundamental message of the teacher is this: You can change your life -- whoever you are, wherever you've been, whatever you've done, another world is possible. As students and teachers begin to see themselves as linked to one another, as tied to history and capable of collective action, the fundamental message of teaching shifts slightly, and becomes broader, more generous: We must change ourselves as we come together to change the world. Teaching invites transformations, it urges revolutions small and large. La educacion es revolucion!'

"This is why informed parents do not trust the Educator-in-Chief and his "comrades." You can take Obama from the radicals in Chicago. But you can't take the Chicago radicalism out of Obama."


And this my friends is why I will not allow G to hear this indoctrinated speech if they attempt to play it in her school.

Saturday, September 05, 2009


Limit Obama to one term all the while making him lame duck in 2010~!! G and I attended a very late night Tea Party to meet the Tea Party Buses traveling through the US.

The pics downloaded backwards. It was really late and the buses were an hour and half later than listed.The pic of G by our signatures was as soon as we got there. She fell asleep for about 45 mins then woke up with cramping legs. We actually got the pic of the bus (moving, dark and phone camera, thus the blurriness) when we were leaving. As soon as the buses arrived there was going to be another hour and half of speeches. I couldn't do that to G. She was tired and her legs were really hurting. So we left and we got to bed at "bednight." G was actually in a really good mood when we got home. We slept today until 9am.
I did leave my e-mail for a couple from my state to e-mail me pics of what we were missing. I hope they do. I will post them if they send them. There were some pretty funny signs. The petition is a rolling petition from a guy in FL who is taking it to all the Tea Party Stops.
That pic of G is my new all time fav. I don't think G's school is going to do the whole pres speech on Tuesday. I let her teacher know that G wouldn't be there if that was the case or I would need to be sitting there with her to hear what was said.

Friday, September 04, 2009

Birthday Recap

On my mom's prompting, G gave me a birthday card where she wrote the date and her name inside. Then they gave me a balloon cause everybody needs a balloon on their birthday. Of course you know whom the balloon was really for right?

Then they bought me a red velvet cake, yum! That is one of my fav cakes in the world. And in case you think I would like chocolate as well, um, nope. Chocolate cake is not my fav. I know I am a living conundrum! I really am not a cake eater anyway.

Mom had dad grill steaks for me and him like we like them, red and warm on the inside, cooked on the outside. Then she fixed Chinese green beans which will also be lunch today, yum!

All in all it was a nice bday dinner. I didn't really want a recognition at all because of my current situation and the whole year long pity party I have been throwing myself. As of today that stops and I move on!!

My parents gave me some bday money which G promptly took wondering what she could buy at the dollar store, heh. She told me she needed toys and games worse than I needed anything, heh. When you have children, it is all about the kids huhn?

Week Recap

Thanks for the birthday well wishes. I hope you all stopped by Sophie's mom's blog to wish Sophia a happy birthday. Sophie's mom is an awesome blogger and Sophie is an awesome child as well as her sister and older brother. What a great family!

So what I did is attend a three day basic information class from Rich Dad Education on real estate. (Please do not leave comments with any negative stuff about how you know someone who knew someone who took that and it doesn't work.) So I was challenged, excited, cynical and nervous for sure to begin the class. The teacher was from the state where my rental house is. That was nice to see someone in a city I know who is and has been in the same seats as me and has succeeded!

Okay, I was getting excited as the day wore on and began planning my future. G had to get ready for bed at my parents' house. I picked her up and had her in bed later than normal (for school time), but she at least didn't fall asleep in the car on the way home. The classes were from 9am to 7pm and ran over each day by 30 to 45 mins. After G was asleep I did my homework assignments and learned some interesting things about credit and myself.

Then came Tuesday. Still excited though a bit more tired, I was getting gas and saw a boy on a bike riding to school at a busy cross section of hwy, train track and streets. I said to myself out loud, "That boy is going to get hit." I turned my back to the street and heard a horrible sound. When I turned around it had happened. The boy was hit by a pick up truck. It was horrible. I am not sure if the boy was able to move or not. I wasn't that close to the scene. I as well as others called 911. Some people stopped to help. I realized I need to be more serious with the CPR training I have had in the past because in that moment I panicked for the boy and driver. It really was terrible. Then I started to have a panic attack. Fun times.

So Tuesday started off with a bang of high emotions and stress. All this before 8am. Seriously. I got to the conference, couldn't find my name (they initially registered me for another city), asked one of the team members who I didn't think was really very nice at all and was told in curt tones that I was basically too early. I couldn't even go talk to the conference leader. Already emotional I of course took that very personally. I shouldn't have because she had no idea what had happened early, how could she? She had no idea how close to tears I was, how could she?

So the day wore on, again we were all challenged, and shown how our financial upbringing will bring us right back to what we already know (that is wrong) even in the face of truth and proof. It was interesting. And to show you what I mean, the lines on your checkbook, one you make a note on and one you sign? you know the lines I am talking about. Did you know that the line you sign isn't a line at all. If you look closely, the line is made up of words. The speaker's point about this is if you didn't know that all these years of writing checks, what else don't you know about banks, finances, and wealth?

So we then played the Cashflow game. We all at every table played the game in our everyday minds. We all after being shown how to think differently didn't. That was very eye opening. How quickly we reverted back to what we learned that was wrong. Then of course because it was a sales course as well as basic info (I will tell the difference in this and others in a minute) they discussed the advanced training classes being offered and the price.

The assignment that night was to do the most we could do (a theme in the class) to get into one of the training classes then go farther. The courses ran very high. So I did call and spoke to my dad about investing in my new real estate adventure so I could go to the classes. No one seemed to have it. Not their faults and I am not upset with any of them. But the thing is I did the most I could do by going to the class in the first place then I went more uncomfortable asking for help.

But needless to say, on the end of a high stress/emotional day and the eve of my last year of being 30 something, in the face of disappointment in myself and past financial decisions, I didn't get any sleep and basically cried. I figured it would be best to skip the next day. After all I thought it was my bday and I really should do something else with it. Thursday morning I decided to go anyway but my attitude was one of defeat. That was even shown in how I chose to dress Thursday. See Tuesday and Wednesday I dressed as if I were going to work. Thursday I dressed in casual pants, a tee and flip flops. If they didn't know how I felt, I showed them by my dress.

I then tried to avoid everyone. But as the class started and I ended up talking with the very woman who I decided not to like the day before I was given what I didn't have the night before and that was HOPE. I was afraid I was losing the support of the Rich Dad team by not signing up for the classes. I was afraid I couldn't do what they said on my own. After talking with the support team and listening and doing exactly what was said in class I realised I have that team behind me. I may struggle a bit more but I will be able to finance the training I need to move on and start with what they have given me.

I have two big purchases I need to invest in, one the software offered for $1700 (worth every penny) for the next 30 days and a trip to Orlando for a 4 day conference for $2300 (includes hotel for 2, all meals). My mom wants to take G to the DWorld anyway so I am going to try to get to that conference. The only problem is it will fill up very soon so I have to purchase it now.

Then I met two guys who are partnering together to take the advanced training and they are
going to help me too. We are going to start an investment club type thing, more like an accountability group to meet every week. One of those guys was pretty sad I couldn't continue right then even followed me out of the conference center to talk to me. Yes on the one hand I am disappointed but on the other I know what I have to do to get started.

Oh and we played the cashflow game again. But this time I got out of the rat race in 25 mins by following exactly, no questions, the strategy given to us by the conference speaker! So my new business is as a Transactional Engineer in real estate! And yes it is uncomfortable to beat the voices in my head that tell me I won't make it based on the past failures. But with right brained thinking, I will beat that left brain voice!!

Thursday, September 03, 2009

Happy Birthday!

Sophie, I am honored to share this day with you.
You are a huge inspiration in a tiny body.
Your spunk and spirit are awe-inspiring.
I hope this day is as wonderful to you as you are to have graced this world with your presence on this day in 2002.
May God bless you and your journey through out your life.
With Much Bloggy Love,
The RamblingMother
(who, today, is not much more than 3 decades and 2 years older than you, heh)